Being mixed with Black and Filipino there were times when I felt I had lost sense of what to identify with. Internally I embrace both sides however on the outside most would say I’m black, and sometimes ask if I’m mixed because of my chink eyes and “Good hair”. I actually find it cool being able to connect with both sides and it allows me to be more well rounded. I get good values and perspective from each side and I’m able to make connections with all kinds of people. I’ve learned not to dwell so much on whether I’m more Black or more Asian but rather embrace both.
On my way to class today I was asked by a friend how my experience with being mixed was like growing up. I told her at times I felt as if I didn’t know my place or I felt like I didn’t really have a category to fit in. It was confusing at times and as I try to explain its as if I don’t have the right words to describe what I mean. I feel what I mean but conveying it with words gets difficult. Being in this class I’m glad I am around a numerous amount of mixed students because we are all able to connect and help each other explain this feeling.
