This week was one filled with sickness and stress. It was nice to experience a guided meditation exercise before we did our free writing exercise. I am a big fan of meditation to calm and quiet the mind, I just never thought of doing it before writing. Once again my type A personality comes rushing to the forefront and starts demanding I “Just Do It.” It is hard for someone like me to relax and this exercise did just that for me. I have been trying to implement this more and more to keep myself grounded and more productive. I am my own worst critic.

The free writing went very well for me. I still found myself crossing out words and trying to be grammatically correct instead of letting things go and flow. I realize that I am a work in progress and will work on this aspect. In retrospect I feel that I am able to let go a bit more and trust myself to flow with things more. It is still hard when the inner perfectionist is sitting on my shoulder telling me things must be perfect. Life is not perfect as we read in the books thus far. Things get messy from time to time.

The documentary “Twinsters” (which I found on Netflix) was both exciting and sad. I found myself trying to put myself in their shoes. How would I feel? Excited to have a sister to share everything with, will she think like me? Then I felt sad at the mother had given them up. I have children and I would not trade them for the world. They are an extension of me that I would fight to the death to protect. I know these circumstances are very different and I did not live this life and have to make that choice, but it stings for sure. Overall I enjoyed it, but kept thinking of the time and the bond that these girls lost for all of those years. I was happy to see them reunite. My empathy really kicked in while watching this. Hard decisions were made that changed lives, for better or worse……….