I really enjoyed class this week.

It was the first movie that was actually funny and entertaining instead of gut wrenching and dramatic. Even though there were various arguable parts of the movie, in general, I thought it was wonderful. It definitely made me want to dig into the life of Bruce Lee… I went to Goodwill and found Tao of Jeet Kune Do by: Bruce Lee himself. What better way to learn about him than to read his own words?

I quit reading the book 3/4 of the way through then when I went through to annotate, I finished the parts I had missed. I was thankful I did, because a piece of work I thought was junk and a waste of time ended up being a transformational work. I cried in the book and saw pieces of myself I try to hide.

The seminar was tough to sit through, which is why I went outside to listen instead. One person in particular wouldn’t stop talking over everybody else like he was the President of the Class or something and since I have a serious “savior complex” that makes me believe I can read people’s minds. I had to step outside instead of opening my mouth in anger. To make a long story short, no matter how much prayer, meditation and yoga I do…I cannot escape who I am… and I am a violent person. I was trained to be this way. So instead of telling the person to shut his fucking mouth, which I wanted to do, I went outside so I couldn’t see him. It worked, because I wouldn’t have said anything inside the group anyways, and I was able to listen to everybody without letting anger cloud my listening skills.

When I met up in my group of 4 people to plan the potluck, one of the people made a comment that bothered me. She said something about the other group breaking into small groups to discuss, and how the last thing she wanted to do was get in a group with white people.  I am happy to move on from this class and hope that my next classes at Evergreen are not as openly racist.

Perhaps in my writing class next semester there will be a division amongst non-fiction writers, fiction, essayists and poets… For all I know, these divisions are in every aspect of society and I have just ben blind to them.