Entropy of Pleasure (Connolly)
The Entropy of Pleasure, by Geraldine Connolly (1947-)
By the time you walk up to the ocean
the wave has already disappeared,
replaced by another wave, another sadness
as in passion or the light dying at dusk
or the shell split under your foot, another
scar made in the sand. You can’t remember
exactly what you need to remember. White fluttering
wings arrive in the sweet grass like letters
from someone you loved who has abandoned you
for another city. And all the signs
read ‘Dangerous Currents’, ‘Sea Forest’.
It’s so difficult to keep track of the tracks
that are leading to unexpected places.
Change is a way we can’t easily follow,
the water disappearing; even the dunes
have shifted and right when you are about to lose
your way into the wild oats, shuddering,
there are the stars in the center of sand dollars
that make you remember what you spend is spent,
the entropy of pleasure a wave’s body
you can’t hold in your hands for long. You
know the only way out is landmarks
you can’t even imagine, the way we are drawn,
pulled by the tides, the first step
into happiness, its dangerous pleasure,
licked by the water’s green flames