filipino goodness

Recently went to go eat some filipino food. Its been a while and I had to go all the way to the South Center Mall to get some. Feeling the nostalgia feels~

Nujabes: Eternal Soul Documentary

Album I might use in my annotated bibliography??

Samurai Champloo; Champloo comes from the term “chanpuru” which I believe is means “to mix” or “mixed” This is a good analogy for my identity and also by thinking of the show and it’s hip hop influences I believe contextually Samurai Champloo could mean “Samurai Mixtape”

Excerpt from Writing Workshop I’d Like to Include in Final Essay

My dad had said something.

I pulled my earphones out, one by one. “Huh?”

 

“I asked, ‘how was school?’”

 

“Fine.” My answer was short and final. I put my earphones back in. I peer at him from the corner of my eye. He’s annoyed. His frustration stems from a parent whose child never talks to them anymore.

 

This implies that we’ve ever had a real conversation. He doesn’t know how to talk to me. I consider, like everyday, telling him about how my day really went. But I don’t.

 

I turn up the music. It’s Nujabes.

Film Review- History and Memory: For Akiko & Takashige

While the film was very short but it was definitely good and had a lot of information packed into it. I mean information as in there was so much to talk about in terms of what was happening on screen. But I think it’s good to start this review with a little background.

 

The film was directed by Rea Tajiri who is a Japanese American film maker who wanted to recall the history of her family when they were sent to internment camps during World War II. I think knowing about how much of a personal stake artists’ put in their works is important in being able to understand the work.

 

So I guess the film itself could be described as a documentary. But it’s not like any documentary I’ve seen. I think the film was very experimental and the way it portrayed its’ concepts where what I’d say non-traditional. I’m not exactly a film buff as I said in the Ghost in the Shell review but from my viewpoint most of it seemed experimental. Despite its nontraditionalness, I really enjoyed it. I liked that she added in footage from things filmed during the war as well as things that she filmed herself during the 90s. I think there were instances of reenactments such as the mother with the canteen and the sister taking a picture of her crush. Most of the film seemed really grainy and not very polished, but I enjoy that aesthethic (lo-fi hip hop lol).

 

While I think there are a lot of themes and concepts to discuss I think I really want to focus on this idea of memory. Because in the film, the idea of history and memory become kind of blurred. I mean most people think of history and memory as these solid, static objects that are hard to change. You have a memory of eating a banana for breakfast in the morning and there’s a history of you always eating a banana for breakfast in the morning. So it’s this undisputable fact both memory and history. But in the film memory and history are both shaped constantly. History is omitted and memory is suppressed. Who gets to tell the history of what happened? Why is there this sense of “intentional forgetfulness” when it comes to an entire group’s traumatic experience? I always hear so much about the Holocaust for instance and no one will ever forget those atrocities. So why is this one forgotten about? Jewish people proudly tell their history to their children and children’s children. But why is it that Rea asks her mother what is like in the internment camps she can’t remember much?  But why is it when I ask my grandmother about the Spanish and American colonization in the Philippines, she won’t answer me?

 

These are questions I definitely thought about during the movie and I definitely think it’s worth exploring them as we move on in the class. Also I wouldn’t mind a rewatch!

 

 

 

How to be a model (minority) and a problem (minority)

A “model” and a “problem”. It’s another way I’d describe being “mixed up”. It sums up my experience of being a mixed kid. There’s so many analogies I could make under these categories.

 

“MODEL”

-Model Minority

-Asian/proximity to whiteness

-interracial love

– is something to be followed/achieved

 

“PROBLEM”

– Problem Minority

-Black

-interracial hate

– Is something to be avoided

 

The idea of “model” and “problem” exists on a spectrum.

 

M O D E L ß———————————————————à P R O B L E M

 

I am both a model and a problem.

 

 

 

Project Proposal

The “home” I intend to write about is nostalgia. I’m approaching the idea of thinking of “home” as a more metaphorical feeling as opposed to a place. This is because I experience “home” through things that have a past significance to me. When I experience the feeling of nostalgia I am transported to a place/time when I felt happy, safe, warm, and all those other feelings people associate “home” with.

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[ F L A S H ☆ B A C K ]

Lately, I’ve been feeling really nostalgic.

Being in this class, I’ve really been looking back on my life and reconnecting with things in my childhood. It’s moments like this that I like listening to music that makes me feel like I’m home.

WIP Ghost in The Shell Review

I had a lot emotions when I was watching the scrolling credits for Ghost in the Shell (2017). It was surreal. I felt a mixture of satisfaction, relief (that the movie was over), and really overwhelmed. For some backstory I had been sitting on watching this film ever it’s announcement to its release date. I hesitated as most of my other APIA friends did because there was no way in hell any of us where going to support this film with our hard earned coin. We didn’t do it for Aloha so logically we wouldn’t do it for this film. On the other hand, watching the movie gave a different perspective. Originally the my reasons for putting off the movie as bad because 1) I believed it was going to be terrible overall (nothing good about), 2) it wasn’t going to be true to the original story and 3) the obvious whitewashing of the movie.

Don’t get me wrong some of these points still ring true but I’ve shifted in my exact reasons why this movie was a trainwreck which is what I’ll be getting into.

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