January has been a journey. The new year is in full swing, and I have nothing to show for it… quite yet. I have felt like I have been fighting the waves, wasted energy on things I cannot control. Turns out handing over the reigns of your life, to someone/something, is very nerve racking! Who knew?

All the hope for 2018 is still there, but newly attached is this impending doom of something called ‘The Future’. So what is a human supposed to do? Well, I assume not sit and wallow in self-pity and fear, but actually get up and start taking the steps to regain a bit of control. OR learn that I don’t necessarily have to BE in control all of the time. See I think I am learning a thing or two… or potentially  just surrendering. Either way, I’ll take it. Life is all about adaption. Lean into the uncomfortable, be constantly humbled, maybe even doubt yourself a bit, why not. At this point layer all that on simultaneously and see how far you can go, find a breaking point. Establish that breaking point, and then push further! And when you break, or drop one of those plates, you so meticulously balanced–and trust me you will break at some point–stop. Laugh a bit. Then, when the laughter starts to turn to tears,  give yourself a pat on the back and pick yourself up. Life goes on, thats the brutal beauty of it. There are shit days, and then there are better days. Learn to adapt, and your life will be MUCH more livable… and maybe even a bit more enjoyable.

For anyone that feels alone. You aren’t. Life hurts us all in funny and different ways. We also show stress and internalize outside pressure in varying forms. Be patient with one another, but also recognize the struggles of the human experience. Know your limits. Tread softly, love hard, and forgive often. Enjoy the journey of self exploration; I sure am.