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lp- Resonation within ourselves

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Music reminds me of a seduction

that I was powerless to overcome.

 Battles that were impossible to avoid.

It changes my life, turning right instead of left,

and has brought me to become a different person.

Words and phrases drift into desolation everyday of our lives.

 

I heard my god tell me something yesterday and later realized

it wasn’t worth remembering.

Whether my spilt second decision was a fair judgment,

I don’t know.  

It saddens me to think I might never know.

Can we follow enough of what is said and still get to where we need to go?

 

I don’t know.

Is it not our duty, then, to grasp the answers

that catch, hold, and resonate?

Music is more that words as I am more

than a self-fulfilling prophecy.

 

Are we not forced to reflect upon

The sounds and words that influence our perspective?

Why these words, these phrases but not those?

We don’t know enough about the universe

To explain its purpose or what happens

To it on a length based timeline.

 

I don’t know exactly why I enjoy being who I am.

I don’t know exactly why I don’t.

 

When somebody is able to put these same thoughts into sounds and words,

I finally feel like there is hope to find answers.

 

And that I am not alone.

lp- week 7 log

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May 12th

3 1/2 hours reading Damasio

favorite quote —>  “We all have free access to consciousness, bubbling so easily and abundantly in our minds that without hesitation or apprehension we let it be
turned off every night when we go to sleep and allow it to return every
morning when the alarm clock rings, at least 365 times a year, not
counting naps. And yet few things about our beings are as remarkable,
foundational, and seemingly mysterious as consciousness. Without
consciousness-that is, a mind endowed with subjectivity-you would
have no way of knowing that you exist, let alone know who you are and
what you think.” – Damasio

3 hours working on holdrege style paper

daily total: 6 and 1/2 hours


May 13th

1 hour meditation session using chan meditation

3 hours working on holdrege style paper

2 hours listening to sublime self entitled album

daily total: 6 hours

May 14th

1 hour reading Cuda

2 hours writing poetry

1 hour listening to 40 oz to Freedom album

1 hour meditation using Zen meditation

daily total: 5 hours

May 15th

3 hours working on holdrege style paper

2 hours reading Damasio

daily total: 5 hours

May 16th

3 hours writing poetry

4 hours reading Cuda

daily total: 7 hours

May 17th

3 hours working on holdrege style paper

2 hours reading Damasio

1 hour listening to Sublime Second Hand Smoke

1 hour reading Cuda

daily total: 7 hours

May 18th

1 hour meditation Chan style

1 hour meditation Zen style

3 hours working on holdrege style paper

Totals

This week: 41 1/2 hours

Cumulative Total: 82 hours

Reading List:

Sublime’s Brad Nowell: Crazy Fool(Portrait of a Punk) by Heidi Siegmund Cuda

Self Comes to Mind Constructing the Conscious Brain by Antonio Damasio

 

lp- Sublime Haiku’s

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SUBLIME

of such excellence,

grandeur, or beauty, as to

inspire the great

 

 

REVERIE

sound so beautiful

my ears tickle with delight

feeling so sublime

 

 

“LETS GO GET STONED”

marijuana high

feels like floating through the sky

how slow time goes by

 

 

BRADLEY

A chance to feel good

a 40 oz to freedom

shame in a bottle

lp-Bachelard Reverie .3

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“In the course of centuries the naive self-love of men had had to submit to two major blows at the hands of science, the first was when they the earth was not the center of the universe but only a tiny fragment of a cosmic system of scarcely imaginable vastness.” (199)

 

Our lives are not our own.

Neurons spreading like mycelium,

we are the fungi of the world.

Our roots connecting like telephone wires we have created.

We are everything and everything is us.

Our minds grow like trees

changing every year,

Adding rings to the stories of our lives,

stories of the universe.

You are on a rock hurdling through space, which is located in a galaxy, which is located in the universe.

As our minds stretch to the stars fires ignite in our brains,

information traveling like shooting stars, changing the way we forever exist.

We are everything and everything is us.

Infinitely.

lp- Bachelard Reverie: Neuro .2

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“Whatever the virtue of arguments for preventative intervention in relation to health, in the case of neurobiologically based strategies for preventative crime control, we argue that policies of screen and intervene – which have a family resemblance to other strategies for ‘governing the future’ in the name of security – are likely to contribute to a further widening of the net of the apparatus of control to the ‘precriminal’ or ‘predelinquent,’ and to play a part in the new ways in which subjects and subjectivities are governed in the name of freedom in an age of insecurity.” (166-167) Neuro

It is controlling me for something I have no control over.                                                                     They say there has always been something wrong in my brain.                                                                                        Treated like a cow in a herd with an infection that is incurable.

I am a precriminal

Like a fish trapped in a pond, I am now able to feel the grip of the widening net of the apparatus of control.

It is preventative they tell me.

They place me in a room in a box in a box with a box full of juice.                                                       They have suits and ties and I’m asked questions that I’ve heard before as if they don’t already know the answers.

In the name of freedom they say.

So why is it that all I can think about is arteries, juice,                                                                        And escape? 

lp-week 6 log

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May 5th

1 hour: researching different methods of meditation

             during this hour i have begun research on finding the best form of meditation for me. i have decided throughout this week i will devote myself to the meditation aspect of this project.

2 1/2 hours: exploring mindfulness meditation

             researching the form of “mindfulness meditation.” it is described as the child to Zen meditation. Mindfulness meditation is described to be used as a tool to “give us exactly this opportunity to become more present with ourselves just as we are”

http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-courage-be-present/201001/how-practice-mindfulness-meditation

2 hours: trying to actually “mindfully meditate” (based off of previous research and guidance videos watched)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHhDCW4Q1Rc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6W31vHDjyng


daily total: 5 and 1/2 hours


May 6th

2 hours: researching chan meditation

Chan mediation is described as being the filter in which to gain a clear “attainment of an absorbed, concentrated state of mind”

“The principle of Chan is taking body and mind from a state of confusion and disparity through a condition of one-mind to the experience of no-mind (or no-thought). This is the result of letting go of one’s clinging attachment to the sense of “I,” and to the illusion of the permanence of the self and phenomena…”

http://www.ddmbasf.org/chan-practices

3 hours: attempting to preform chan meditation through previous knowledge.

http://chancenter.org/cmc/chan-practice/how-to-meditate/

daily total: 5 hours

May 7th

2 hours: researching Zen meditation

(one source)http://www.project-meditation.org/mt/zen_meditation.html

(also in interest)http://olympiazencenter.org/

3 hours: practicing Zen meditation

http://www.wikihow.com/Begin-Zen-Meditation-(Zazen)

1 hour: reading Cuda

daily total: 6 hours

May 8th

2 hours: researching transcendental meditation

http://www.tm.org/ <– amazing resource

3 hours: practicing transcendental meditation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RK1kbJiisLk

1 hour reading: Cuda

1 hour: writing poetry

daily total: 7 hours

May 9th

2 hours researching: Taoist meditation

http://www.energyarts.com/taoist-meditation

3 hours: practicing taoist meditation

http://www.energyarts.com/learn-taoist-meditation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhkOC5emtkg

2 hours: reading Cuda

daily total: 7

May 10th

2 hours researching buddhist meditataion

http://www.accesstoinsight.org/lib/authors/story/bl015.html

3 hours practicing buddhist meditation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJjafJouvt4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9gpQ21CJmQw

daily total: 5 hours

May 11th

4 hours reading Cuda

2 hours writing poetry

1 hour listening to 40 oz to freedom album

daily total: 7 hours

Totals

This week: 40 1/2

Cumulative Total: 40 1/2

Reading List:

Sublime’s Brad Nowell: Crazy Fool(Portrait of a Punk) by Heidi Siegmund Cuda

Self Comes to Mind Constructing the Conscious Brain

 

lp – Bachelard Reverie: Neuro .1

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“We have a social brain in that the brain has evolved to favor a certain type of sociality manifested in all the interactions between persons and groups that come naturally to humans in our social lives. And we have a social brain in that this organ is now construed as malleable, open to, and shaped by, social interaction—shaping sociality as it is itself reshaped by it.” 163

 

Neurons finely tuning themselves, reacting to all and every interaction perceived.

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

Shaping me as I am shaping you, we will forever be stored in the neurons firing in each other’s brains,

and changing each other always as we grow older.

For inside me, there will always be you there,

shaping you as you shape me.

Yet, when the natural response to change is resistance,

I find myself, not only accepting, but actively constructing the change itself.

Pursuing the depths of uncertainty that these constructs may bring.

As if you are the oyster, and you are tasting me

as I am tasting you.

Dive in.

LP is for Sublime: bridging the gap between lyrics and poetry

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Field Study Proposal

The student will explore what happens to the sense of self, body and mind when  experiencing the music of Sublime. She will pose the questions,  Who am I in relation to their lyrics, their style, their clothes, their sound, their overall identity, how do they personally affect me and/ or the culture around me?  How can I know?  This last question, How Can I Know?, Meditation can be described as a process of “cleaning the lens” of one’s own self perception, therefore,  the student will plan to use and study different meditation methods to try and answer these questions. The student will also be creating poetry and lyrics based off of the influence of the band Sublime, followed with a term paper modeled after Susan Howe’s The Midnight execpt the students’ will be in relation with Sublime. the student will also be producing a Craig Holdrege skunk cabbage style paper based strictly around The album by Sublime, 40oz to Freedom.

 

ABCs and 123s – weekly log and field notes

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Bachelardian Reverie

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Poetry

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Poetry Observed

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Term Paper Abstract

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I hold no value to you

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Have we all been morphed into sheep?

Waiting in line to be stripped naked, our pink flesh exposed to the cold chill of reality.

This makes us more vulnerable, more likely to follow the crowd, weak, if we feel we look ugly.

The aesthetics of the emotion of feeling alone.

because nothing seems better than feeling high when you’re low.

 

Have we all been morphed into cattle?

Food fed to us and thrown into the bowls we continue to eat from.

I can’t digest corn, so why would you feed it to me?

To make me fat, more tasteful to the evil taste buds

coating the monopolistic tongue that is this country,

but my value makes me tasteful.

Fertilizing your grass and feeding your children.

 

I am not something you can control so easily.